the dead never really goes away.


p.s. thanks for all those who greeted on my bday. i had actually been on surgery, so i'm really forced not to move, much less even stretch @__@;. but i'm commenting around anyway, so... =P

honestly it's about 2 hours past already at my timezone. but it's still the 19th on other parts of the world, right^^; ?

...ah, once again i fail in deadlines =.=.

but anyway, what i had been working on, but once again never did finish >.< ;; (click for bigger offsite) :

a dedication to one of my favorite meganes, whose birthday is on october 19 <--* and because it's impossible to forget this date, at least for me XD. though i did forget the first time XDD;;*. ok, it's supposed to be^^;; Yagyuu^^;; i could understand tho if it doesn't look like him orz ~o<;.

..didn't finish because it's actually one of many pages XD. but since i've barely finished half and i still have to get some stitches removed tomorrow --- no, later today --- i don't know if i could post even that half today. or tomorrow. or someday though i don't want it to be someday again ~___~;;;..! i would like to believe i'm not procrastinating =o= ahaha. =.=;;

maybe i should just skip on the toning ~__~;;...

 

previously a birthday gift to myself, previously another character, now a character whose birthday is today.

happy birthday, Toru baby♥.  i still have to find the perfect wig for you.

this is so belated, but then this is the longest and most stable my net had been due to recent events.

it had been worse than this. the sights and stories had been heartbreaking all week. and apparently another one is coming even though people had barely recovered.

i'm just glad that finally i've heard of my friends and acquaintances, and also of their family safe.

if you can read this, to my fellowmen on my flist, then i'm glad you're ok.


people still need help, even the smallest kind will do. having the net is the only ability i have to help as of now, but no matter how crappy it is, sharing the important information could make a difference:

Redcross.ph
How to help 1
How to help 2

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (^o^)/ !

GODSPEED~~~♥ GOD BLESS!


///shinya

...at 12:17am-12:20am yesterday.




just a few hours ago, i had an epiphany.

from now on, August 23 will be my "New Year".

it would be a time to look back on "how far i've progressed through my life/goals".  will i have almost the same number of accomplishments as Masa in a year? or even more?

...this was when i saw there's still no improvement yet in my Japanese （苦笑）.



being an inspiration to lots of people. i think that is Masa's greatest accomplishment.  and i find it endearing that somehow he doesn't seem to be aware of it... i really hope he doesn't change ♥.

it's not just egoist thinking on my part but, someday, i would want to be an inspiration to lots of people too.




cosmically, i also wish Saitou Takumi a belated happy birthday...



aww i still haven't written down that lovesick dedication yet to Masa... um. i still write in my personal journal (hosted somewhere else). going to write in my doll journal too now^^;; (also hosted somewhere else^^;;).  still not finding the idea of crossposting appealing. and this is also a test.

apparently, my plans for a D1 self-made doujinshi on 8/20 (aka my "2Φ8 Day" for missing 8/2 =o=) failed too.  maybe i should just wait until Yagyuu's birthday then. it's like... 2 months away anyway. ...=__=;;. sorry, kedi_kedi  ( > __ < ) ;; ...
i really suck at deadlines... why do i even try?? *beats self up*

i really want to attend that Masa+Leslie Kee Talk Event for Zodiac. and of course have my copy of Zodiac signed by them both (as an artist, i really really want to see Leslie Kee in person as well!  it's only just recently that i've seen that his photography style is one of the visual styles i've always wanted to achieve as a kid). But... no way to ;o;...  (willing to pay anyone for it argh...  Crescent Shop and SMJ just doesn't do events like this ;o;)